“I Didn’t Love My Husband When I Married Him” – Ese Walters Reveals


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Ese Walter who exposed her sexual affair with COZA pastor, Biodun Fatoyinbo moved on with her life and got married to Cool FM’s OAP, Benny Ark in 2014. The mother of one however took to her social media page on Instagram to reveal some rather shocking details of her relationship and subsequent marriage to her husband. Ese who has some months ago denounced Jesus said she did not love her husband at the time she got married. Explaining further, Ese Walter-Ark revealed that she married the Cool FM OAP just to shut people’s mouth up.

She also revealed that she’s had issues trusting the father of her baby whom she got married to two and a half years ago.She wrote on her Instagram page:

“When I agreed to marry him two and a half years ago, I didn’t love him. Heck I didn’t love my own self. I just needed a change of story. I needed to stop being the girl everyone called an evil mistress and “graduate” to somebody’s Mrs. I thought the Mrs title was going to save my ass and bring me some sort of redemption. I was wrong.”

Calling what happened next a disaster is putting it mildly. Weeks into living together brought out the worse in both of us. I thought I made a mistake. I didn’t trust him so why was I married to him. We would argue over everything and I convinced myself I wanted out despite the baby on the way.

“In therapy I was able to face my own demons for the first time. I realized it was never about him or the other guys I dated. I was always looking for a fix outside of myself. I was always needing someone to take away the pain and save my lonely self. I was looking for what I wasn’t because I thought that could heal me.”


“Months of living outside my comfort zone and going where the pain was brought me face to face with my demons that saved me. I didn’t trust him because I didn’t trust me. I couldn’t love him because I had no love to give. I was always blaming him because it was easier to project than take responsibility. As I started to evolve and see my own self, I was able to see him for the first time.”


“As I started loving myself, I was able to love him and now as I learn to trust myself, I am trusting him, one day at a time. As I lay beside him last night I remembered a quote I read sometime ago. I don’t remember who said it but it read, “when you love the one you got, the one you got becomes the one you love.”

“When I stopped trying to change him and let him be, I was able to give room for his own evolving. He ain’t perfect. Who wants perfect anyways? I am learning that all is as it should be in the Universe, there are no mistakes only feedback. The Universe brought the one I needed for my evolving and I am thankful. GRATITUDE is my dominant feeling this morning. If you are struggling with the one you love, know that the world’s standard of love is phyuked up. Vibrate higher and love because of love.”

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